Life Unexpected: Heartbreak and Shock
Sunday, January 01, 2017
Here I was: 32 years old with three kids under 7 years old. Three kids who would now face so much disappointment and confusion that I never wanted them to face. Here I was faced with a life that I had dedicated so much time and energy in trying to perfect for them, for us, that was gone with the simple words that had just left his mouth. And here I was with the reality that it was crumbling without an ounce of control in my hands. There was nothing I could say or do to stop this. Nothing I could do to give my kids the "picture-perfect" life I envisioned for the last 11 years. I've never felt like a failure more in my life than this very moment in time. I felt guilt, devastation, heartbreak, deceit, pain...so much pain. I cried, yelled, laughed and had nearly every reaction in-between. Shock is probably the best way to describe the next 12 hours of my life.
Stay tuned as I share what happened next and how I started to "pick up the pieces".